For a pretty long time now, I have been tested non-stop. Sometimes it seems like it has stopped and hopefully now it has. But over these weeks, I have come to many realizations. Yesterday, I tried to go to God with my problems, but yet I made the mistake of going to Him prideful. I can't believe how stupid I was going to God as if He owed me something. He doesn't owe me anything. Yes, I do my absolute best to serve God in every way possible, but I still deserve Hell. All I needed to do was come to God humble but I couldn't seem to do so and so my problems stretched farther and into most of today. I needed a sign from God and He gave it to me. Someone who I have known practically no time at all actually cared what was going on with me. I had only ever talked to this person two times or so and that did not in any way make them obliged to care, but yet that person did. I don't want to say a name because they don't know I was writing this but if you read it then thank you and I just want you to know that you were a great blessing in my time of trials and I can never really repay you.
Afterwards, I came to another realization. I heard a voice in my head that just started talking to me and I'm sure this can help someone so here is what was said: "You know, Satan is better than you at a lot of things. He is smarter than you. He is stronger than you. He knows the Word better than you. He even looks better than you. He is the most beautiful angel ever. If God allows it, he can bring the world down around you but he can NEVER bring you down with it."
